At one point in YCSE, Amanda Seyfried (recently portraying Elizabeth Holmes in the Hulu miniseries The Dropout), watches raw footage of Holmes watch Seyfried play herself – a “character [Holmes] created,” according to a NYT article debated throughout.
If that sentence made you frustrated, it’s because it is frustrating. The concept of truth, and representations of truth, is layered on delicately but with intention over the course of the movie’s three-hour run-time — a light dusting mounting into a knotted hair ball that makes truth a shifting target, and more than that, something that can compete against the rooted appetite for human connection and empathy. Truth can fuck over trust, and vice versa. The Billy of it all is probably the best illustration of that dance under the gaslight.
Without any comment on Holmes’ crimes, this movie somehow doesn’t feel like it’s about her. She’s an unsteady portal into the power of human connection—to see and be seen—whether manipulative, sincere, or some mix of both. Fielder explores that, as he has in The Rehearsal before, with a well-balanced desire to understand, not the truth necessarily, but the person.
Seyfried becomes the deputized partner and checkpoint in this exercise to “understand” Holmes through a series of “rehearsals” with Fielder, another slanted human to broaden understanding but also complicate truth. With openness and tenderness, you see them battle and challenge each other’s interpretations as they do their own. Workshopped reenactments become both a hazy and meticulous dissection of wording (“it” or “something”), internalized guilt, externalized scorn, and an always an uneven instinct to wed truth with trust. It’s messy, unresolved, but super-satisfying.
No matter the truth, there’s something increasingly scarce and precious about the patience to listen, engage, and render understanding. This is not to say hearing should come at the expense of forceful response or that stated intentions outweigh ultimate acts. But there’s something really beautiful—tragic even—in the willingness to listen and the choice to trust, even if it’s misdirected towards shithead, narcissistic, frankly scary Billy.
Capstone to my viewing experience was walking out of the theater and on to the metro surrounded by people in costume—playful cat, slutty SpongeBob, The Shining twins—en route to their own rehearsal. Play on, be kind, and always try to understand. Looking at you, slutty SpongeBob.









